...ups and downs...
Mostly ups, no serious downs. I guess the downs have been mostly mine and not really Bela's. Anyway.. more on that in a minute. At her cardiology apt last week she once again had a fever of 103, puked everywhere several times, got her blood drawn, and we sat and waited to hear if we would be driving home that day or walking over to the hospital to be admitted. After an hr the blood work came back 'okay'. For some reason it has really taken a toll on me. As I've talked to my mom and close friends about it, I think what has me the most 'down' is that I just never anticipated things to get more difficult as she got older. In many many ways, things are better. But in many other ways, it is just getting more and more difficult. I don't think I ever really thought about what all this would do emotionally to Bela. She is terrified of new people and new places, often making herself throw up from fear. A few weeks ago I took her and Bens to the library, a pl...