Bela Girl

Track number 1 on the cd that is almost always in Bela's CD player is Baby Mine, by Alison Krauss. Jenna, Lily's mom, made us the CD during Bela's second surgery. Every song on that CD does something to me when I hear them. They stir many memories for me. I sing Baby Mine to her every night as I rock her before she goes to bed. She snuggles right up to me, it is my most favorite moment of the day. Tonight was particularly tender for me as I thought about little Lily, born the same day as Bela, in a hopsital bed recovering from her 4th open heart surgery. It is amazing really, that someone so little can endure so much. My thoughts and prayers are with her and her mommy tonight. I am extremeley grateful tonight for how blessed we've been. Bela's health has been amazing lately considering all that is against her. Sometimes it's so easy to want to believe that it's all not real, that she is a whole and healthy little girl. When you've imagined life w...

This little girl.. she sure does know how to throw us for a loop. After 10 days of not being herself, she has totally rebounded 100%. She is back to her beautiful enegetic little self and I love it!! I missed her! I hate all the worrying. She has been so happy the last two days. Just tonight we played peekaboo and chased her all around the house as she giggled her little head off. So whatever it was, it never got too bad and went away! Horray! I just hate when the words heart failure are mentioned...they are sickening words to hear! It's been way too long since I posted pictures of her and of Bens.. So I'm gonna go way back.. Halloween (WAY back, I know) Bens's bday party. My little man is 4! Some random shots of the last couple months: And just as I was uploading some christmas pictures, my computer has decided to stop working right. I'll try again tomorrow..

Update: Great news! No sign of heart failure.. BNP looks "beautiful" in Beth's words.. YEAH!! I honestly wasn't even worried about heart failure until it was suggested.. I'm glad that's over and it's ruled out! We're assuming its just something viral she's fighting.. life can resume..:) It's been a rough couple of weeks with Bela. We've all been worried.. something isn't right but I can't put a finger on it. She just hasn't had that usual sparkle in her eyes or her normal bubbly personality. She's been really tired, quiet, and calm. But she never had any other symptoms. I ALMOST called her doctors several time, ALMOST wrote or texted Beth, but everytime I'd be reassured by a little spark of energy that would last for an hour or so. I just havn't been sure what was wrong. Bens was sick after christmas and I just was sure her body was just fighting something. And it could be.. I've had her into see most ...