Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Track number 1 on the cd that is almost always in Bela's CD player is Baby Mine, by Alison Krauss. Jenna, Lily's mom, made us the CD during Bela's second surgery. Every song on that CD does something to me when I hear them. They stir many memories for me. I sing Baby Mine to her every night as I rock her before she goes to bed. She snuggles right up to me, it is my most favorite moment of the day. Tonight was particularly tender for me as I thought about little Lily, born the same day as Bela, in a hopsital bed recovering from her 4th open heart surgery. It is amazing really, that someone so little can endure so much. My thoughts and prayers are with her and her mommy tonight.
I am extremeley grateful tonight for how blessed we've been. Bela's health has been amazing lately considering all that is against her. Sometimes it's so easy to want to believe that it's all not real, that she is a whole and healthy little girl.
When you've imagined life without your baby girl, EVERYTHING, every moment, every tear, every word, every laugh, every second is precious.