My little man

My Bens started kindergarten... where has the time gone? I'm pretty sure I just had this little man.. Time is flying by. I have had 1000 different emotions the last couple weeks. I was really anticipating school starting because.. Summer here stinks. It's horrible. So I was excited for him to have something to do. But sending him those first few days were hard! So hard! I'd feel so anxious all day long. Knowing that he's with people and kids I don't know and learning and seeing who knows what and I wasn't right there to put little plugs into his ear all day long. I'm still having a hard time with that. But he's actually really having fun and loves to tell me all about his day. I love hearing all about his day. Like the stories about the girl in his class who is always naughty and gets in trouble all the time. And the PE teacher who is magic because he can throw a hula hoop out and then tells it to come back to him, and it does! And all the silly rhyming songs he's learning in music, the same songs I remember learning when I was in school. It's so fun to hear the stories and see his eyes light up.

I realized though that I'm really glad someone else is teaching him. Homework is already annoying because he dosn't like when I correct him and we usually both end up annoyed by the time it's done (all 5 minutes of it.) Does that happen with anyone else?

We sure do love you Bens. You are sweet, kind, and for the most part a very considerate little boy, and I hope you always stay that way.

The classic annoyed with all the pictures being taken picture. Seriously mom?!



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