thoughts...nearing the end

Today I was having trouble staying positive and patient as I near the end of my pregnancy. It's like this switch goes off when your getting close and you're no longer able to just enjoy it anymore.. Well.. that and you do get tired of the back pain, peeing every 20 minutes, heaving a giant belly from side to side trying desperately to just fall asleep, being out of breath from walking up the stairs, not being able to bend over... I could keep going but... I'll stop. I'm just ready to have a functional body and energy level back again.


....BUT.. how amazing is it that I grew a baby inside me? There's a sweet, full term baby girl getting all ready to come out and meet us. It's amazing.. it never gets old. Benson changed everything for us, then Bela came along and changed everything again.... all for the better. I can't wait to bring another into our family, to be loved and adored by her brother and sister. At this point in my pregnancy with Bela I was going to the dr. every other day to make sure she was still alive. It was painful. There was not much to be excited about and my heart felt so heavy. Every night when I'm (trying to) go to sleep, I put my hands on my tummy to feel her and get that little rush of excitement that something so BIG is about to happen to us, and that it will all be okay this time around..

I can't wait.

Comments

cici said…
This time around everything Will be better than o.k.
God Bless you all with a happy and safe delivery.
January 17, 2011 at 11:28 PM
The Silly Nilly Family said…
That's awesome. Congratulations! Love seeing little Benson and Bela's pictures, and it will be so fun to see your new little one too! :)
January 18, 2011 at 5:13 AM
Jamie said…
I was just thinking about you and wondering if you were still pregnant. I just had my baby boy last week. I wish you an easy and exciting labor and delivery. Can't wait to see pictures. Good luck with having 3 kids (it's kinda crazy) and enjoy your new baby girl. She'll be here so soon.
January 18, 2011 at 4:43 PM
Matt and Jennae Porter said…
Yay... can't wait to meet her! She will be here before you know it. What a wonderful blessing for your family, once again. Make sure Matt is part of Tanner's mass text announcing when she's born!
January 19, 2011 at 12:36 PM
Angie Milne said…
can't wait either!!!
January 19, 2011 at 2:57 PM
Nicole said…
So excited for you and your family. Can't wait to see pictures of this new baby girl. I'm sure she'll be beautiful just like Bela was/still is :)
January 21, 2011 at 8:33 AM
Dallas and Krista said…
can't wait to meet her. it will be soon enough- rest your little heart and tired body.

so not what you wanted to hear i'm sure :)
January 21, 2011 at 10:35 PM
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January 22, 2011 at 2:55 AM
The Joslyn Family said…
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January 22, 2011 at 3:52 PM
Victoria said…
This is a beautiful post. It seems like the Lord has had a lot of miracles laid away for the Milne family, and this is one more. Congratulations.
January 22, 2011 at 6:06 PM
The Ridgway Family said…
Avery, I have been thinking of you a lot lately. I know exactly how you are feeling as you get ready to have your little one. I knew that Kanyon was healthy, but I was still anxious and nervous. As you mentioned in an earlier post that you worry more, I did worry more about him, dumb things really, but I think it was from our past experience. She is going to bless your family in so many ways and put your heart at ease to have a "normal" baby again. Enjoy these last few days as much as you can because the fun will really begin when she comes.

Love, Keisa
January 25, 2011 at 7:35 AM
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