We've been back with Bela for about an hour.. I can't take my eyes off her. She's done and I can't believe it. It's so nice to be through with that part. She is resting pretty peacefully and still pretty sedated, but is beginning to stir. When she does she gets a pained look on her face. This is a very tricky period and one that is always really difficult for us to watch. She needs to wake up enough to be able to come of the breathing machine and so she will feel pain and discomfort and get really upset. Her little arms are already restrained in anticipation of her waking up.
She did have a couple issues during surgery we were just told about. She had some arrhythmia issues and SVT (her heart rate was way too fast) and she needed to be paced back to a normal rhythm a few times. But since she has been back her numbers have all looked good. Praying they stay that way.
I feel so bad this time around wondering what she's thinking and feeling. If she is wondering why she came here perfectly fine and is waking up feeling who knows how bad. I can't imagine what it feels like to have your sternum cut open and pulled apart 4 inches and then sewn back together.
I feel seriously in AWE today of what has been done to give her life. I'm so thankful for it. I feel peace and comfort today so I KNOW that she does too.