6 months

Well...she did really well for awhile on a little less sedation. Just a little while ago she woke up some more and started really moving and it sent her sats down a little so they drugged her up some more. She is making progress though and doing great, we could not ask her to do anything more than she is doing.

Today she is 6 months old. What a journey this has been.. I plan to save these blog entries for her later to read and so I wanted to write specifically to her for a minute....
Happy 6 month birthday, little miracle. You are incredible. You've given us more joy in these 6 months than I could ever tell you. I have learned and grown so much from you. You teach me about patience, strength, endurance, hope, love, compassion, gratitude and so much more. You make everyone around you want to be better and live better lives. I lack the words sometimes to tell you what you mean to me, what you do to my heart. Mommy loves you and I am so proud of you, my little angel. Look at what you've accomplished in 6 short months! Look at how much you've overcome and fought through! Your daddy and big brother adore you, you have stolen all of our hearts...



I feel very humbled tonight as I think about the 6 months I've had with her that I wasn't sure I'd ever get. And I know there is much more time to come. I remember in my pregnancy, doctor after doctor told us to basically not expect much from her. That if she even made it through the pregnancy at all, it would be close to a miracle, and even if she did, surgery might be too much for her. I really let that get to me, I never expected to have her in my life. I tried to move on, even when she was still growing inside me everyday, kicking me and hiccuping. It was an aweful feeling, I tried to not get attached to her, and I tried to tell myself to already look to the next pregnancy. Each day since Febuary 29th, I have let go of those thoughts little by little and have been able to replace them with so much hope. So tonight as I watch her rest and hold her little swollen hand, my heart is extremely full.

Comments

Sally Jensen Interiors said…
Oh Ave...it truly is a miracle..I remember you telling me your plans for the next baby but at the same time you had so much more of a positive outlook then I know I would have had. I am so happy to hear that she is doing so well. Call me for anything!
August 29, 2008 at 10:20 PM
Sheri Lee said…
I am so glad she is doing so well. You are amazing for your attitude through all of this! I never make comments because I never know what to say, but I am just happy and will pray fer little Bela's continued improvement. Please ask me for any help you might need.
August 29, 2008 at 10:30 PM
S and K said…
ok tears.....that's pretty much all I have to say that was so sweet. And she is one awesome miracle that's for sure!
August 29, 2008 at 11:58 PM
Ali said…
Ave. I am so bad about leaving comments, but I've been reading all your blog updates and keeping you guys in my heart and prayers. I am so grateful that things are going as well as they are. What an amazing miracle. What amazing examples you guys are in every way, you have given my so much strength and hope. It was so fun to spend some time with you guys last week! I loved it. Youre in my prayers. Lots of love, Ali
August 30, 2008 at 2:57 AM
Ali said…
she is so beautiful!! I love her little face. She really is so lucky to have you and Tanner.
August 30, 2008 at 6:38 AM
Marianne said…
Avery you are such a good mom and I know Bella can feel both you and Tanners strength! I am so happy to have just read all these posts and things are going good! You are all fighters and BELLA is a little champ!
August 30, 2008 at 7:09 AM
The Simmons Family said…
Happy six month birthday sweet Bela!

She looks just like Owen did all puffy and swollen. It goes away and she'll be home and PINK before you know it! It's so nice to know that it's over for another year or so and that they can just be babies for a while!

Andrea
August 30, 2008 at 7:39 AM
Erin said…
Such a sweet tribute to your sweet little girl. For those who may not believe miracles still happen today it only takes looking at your Bela to know they most certainly do!!!! And one of her miracles is having a family like you who have never given up on her and have allowed her to bless your lives and the lives of so many others you have shared her journey with. She has accomplished more in 6 months than most of us will probably ever accomplish in a lifetime. She is a special miracle for sure Avery and I do believe she is here to stay!!!!
August 30, 2008 at 9:00 AM
Kristy Sola said…
Hi Avery-
I have been checking up on your posts daily and Bela is constantly in our prayers. What an amazing little baby you have and what amazing parents you and Tanner are. I really can't tell you how much these posts have touched my life. Seeing how stong Bela has been and seeing how much love and hope you and your husband have has made me truly believe in miracles.
August 30, 2008 at 10:19 AM
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