Fontan 1

Bela was in great spirits this morning. She really could not have been in better shape heading in to this surgery. The best thing we did for her was get her gtube back in. Everyone that sees her says how much more filled out she looks. She looks and acts like a different girl since December. She was talkative and happy from the moment we pulled her out of bed until they took her back. That makes ALL the difference in the world to me. I have been praying for that very specifically...that she wouldn't the least bit anxious or scared. I have tried very to hard to appear like nothing is wrong or bothering me the last few days, especially this morning. We laughed and played like it was just a regular appointment and she didn't skip a beat. They gave her versed and 10 minutes later she was completley loopy and after kisses and hugs they carried her away from us with a carefree smile on her face. It was perfect.

And then I buried my face in Tanners chest and let the tears come.

We've been sitting in a waiting room for the last 3 hours now with lots of other families with kids in various surgeries. We're the only ones still here from the original group of us. Every time the door opens we both perk up hoping it's news about Bela. At 9 they told us she was intubated. At 10:45 they told us that she was now on the heart and lung bypass machine. Longest three hours of my life. And they just started the work on her heart! The nurse left us with, "Settle in, this is going to be a long day." We got a chuckle out of that. You either laugh or cry right? Like we didn't know that already..

2 1/2 hours down... a few more to go.

I hope I'm strong enough to see her like this again.

Keep the prayers for her coming... we appreciate them more than we could EVER say.