Tuesday, March 25, 2008
We've been home 5 wonderful days now and time is going by so fast. It's amazing how much time and attention my tiny 6 pound little girl requires. She's a full time job! I always knew she would change my life (in many more ways than one), but I'm starting to realize just how long the road ahead with her really is! On our last day at the hospital I met a mom of a 5 1/2 month old little boy who had just gotten his Glenn operation (the second one). It was very sad to see his little arms strapped down and to see a scared look on his little face. At his age he knew more of what was going on. And then these sweet babies go through all of it again at 2-3 years. The more families that I meet with babies going through this the more I have come to realize that they are here for very specific, important reasons. I believe that in the premortal life, they not only accepted this challenging life, but volunteered for it. I believe that they were of the strongest, most valient spirits and chose this selfless life to bless the lives of others. I have been absolutley amazed and humbled by all the people who have been affected by Bela already. We got a sweet note the other day left on our porch by someone in our ward that we havn't even known that long but has been so supportive to us through all this. She wrote, "Your family's experience has truly been an inspiration to us, as I know it has been to so many others. It has helped strengthen our own testimonies of the Gospel principles and the love Heavenly Father has for us. THanks for helping us put life in proper perspective." I know that is why Bela is here. She is giving people a reason to believe in miracles and in the healing powers of heaven. She is giving people a chance to excersise faith and to pray more meaningfully and purposfully, and realize whats really important in life. I know that this is true for myself, she has helped me grow in so many ways since she has come into my life. I am grateful for what this little girl has taught me and will continue to teach me. And I am so grateful that so many of you have been able to be touched in some way by her as well. I am ever more convinced that this is why all these sweet babies I have met recently are given to us in this way. They are our teachers.
Bela has had 3 dr. apts since we've been home and each one has gone well. She is still doing great. She gained a tiny bit over the weekend. we were hoping for a little more, but she's doing so well. She LOVES to be held.. my mom says she's spoiled, I'm sure she is. :) I can't help but think that she is just so happy to be loved and cuddled and in mommy's arms so I happily give in. The only time she is extremely unhappy is when she is undressed. We've given her a couple baths and she is not a fan. Its a shame cuz there's nothing better than her clean fluffy mohawk. :)
We continue to appreciate soo much your love and support and prayers. Bela is getting stronger everyday and we have SO much to be grateful for.
Not to forget about Benson...he's been able to find ways to entertain himself lately..