Monday, March 5, 2012

Fontan 1

Bela was in great spirits this morning. She really could not have been in better shape heading in to this surgery. The best thing we did for her was get her gtube back in. Everyone that sees her says how much more filled out she looks. She looks and acts like a different girl since December. She was talkative and happy from the moment we pulled her out of bed until they took her back. That makes ALL the difference in the world to me. I have been praying for that very specifically...that she wouldn't the least bit anxious or scared. I have tried very to hard to appear like nothing is wrong or bothering me the last few days, especially this morning. We laughed and played like it was just a regular appointment and she didn't skip a beat. They gave her versed and 10 minutes later she was completley loopy and after kisses and hugs they carried her away from us with a carefree smile on her face. It was perfect.
And then I buried my face in Tanners chest and let the tears come.
We've been sitting in a waiting room for the last 3 hours now with lots of other families with kids in various surgeries. We're the only ones still here from the original group of us. Every time the door opens we both perk up hoping it's news about Bela. At 9 they told us she was intubated. At 10:45 they told us that she was now on the heart and lung bypass machine. Longest three hours of my life. And they just started the work on her heart! The nurse left us with, "Settle in, this is going to be a long day." We got a chuckle out of that. You either laugh or cry right? Like we didn't know that already..
2 1/2 hours down... a few more to go.
I hope I'm strong enough to see her like this again.
Keep the prayers for her coming... we appreciate them more than we could EVER say.

11 comments:

Christene Horlacher said...

You are an amazing mom. Can't imagine how hard this is for you both. Lots of prayers coming your way.:)

Lila said...

Thank you for your post. You and Bella are all over my heart today.
Looking forward to good news.

Cason and Marie said...

Tears. Thinking and praying for you, bela girl and your sweet family. You are such an inspiration ave! Xoxo.

Andrea said...

You are amazing Avery. Still praying for you and Bela.

Karie Owens said...

Thank you for the post Avery, I can't imagine how difficult this time is for you. You are such a amazing mother! I have had a prayer in my heart all morning for Bella, and everyone else involved! Hang in there!

Shannon said...

We've been wondering when the surgery was. Your are an incredible mom. Hang in there. You're not doing this alone. We'll keep you all in our prayers.

S and K said...

Haven't stopped praying for you guys all day!!! Thanks for the update! Your amazing! I'm so glad the morning went so well!

S and K said...

Haven't stopped praying for you guys all day!!! Thanks for the update! Your amazing! I'm so glad the morning went so well!

Uhrich said...

Tanner and Avery, you are amazing parents. My young boys include Bella in their prayers every night.

Auburn said...

Laugh or cry - you are amazing. Constant prayer in my heart for sweet Bela and for you all today. Thinking of you constantly, can't imagine what you are going through.

The Smith's said...

Just said a prayer for sweet Bela!